Feeling sorry for Your-self

My – Self, is pretty exhausted.

She’s had a lot to manage just lately.

During a heated discussion, reminiscent of being the teenager that I once was, my Mother, slammed me with these words;

“You’re always feeling sorry for yourself!”

“Well let’s face it Michelle, there is always one problem or another you seem to be dealing with-if you’d had the kind of life that I had, dealing with your sick father all those years ago… then God help you.”

I’ll just leave it there for now and continue feeling oh, so sorry for my-self!

Seems, it’s something I’m consistently good at it.


 (I must remember to change my socks)

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Take what sits right with you and let go of the rest…

I feel a little detached today and I’m gently reminding myself that its okay to not be okay.

Another early morning visit to the hospital for more blood tests to see if the doctor can make headway with what my body is struggling with and of course… I have my own answers (remembering the mind/body connection) yet will still go down this route first to keep my husband and doctor happy.

The majority of hospital staff who passed me in the corridors were without gloves or masks to protect themselves (and us) so I find myself still questioning, what an earth is going on?

Whilst sat in the waiting room, I scrolled through some of the blogs that I follow and read some interesting comments on many different subjects.

Something I read caught my eye and I followed the comment to a blog that I have’t seen before and found myself feeling very sad, about what I was reading.

I am very aware that reading my writing, must have been difficult at times for some people too.

It saddens me to my absolute core when I read sentences like;

I will always have to live with this, it will always be this way, I will have to get used to living like this for the rest of my life and I can never have the things in life that I can only dream about.

I question why I was lead to this particular blog and how can I help people change their suffocating beliefs to more empowering ones-beliefs that will ignite within them, a passion to want to live free of the chains, that they have bound themselves with.

I question why a doctor will often prescribe drugs to a patient before taking the time to look further into their personal history- yes you are probably all screaming at me that doctors don’t have the time and of course I get that!

Surely the patient could be referred on to someone who is able to take a deeper look into what is happening underneath those symptoms, what’s really going on?

I am not medically trained and don’t ever claim to be either, but people need to know that there is an insurmountable amount of medical practitioners in the world that have worked tirelessly with researching this subject matter. Dr Lissa Rankin is just one of many doctors who are thinking outside of the box, so to speak.

You can find her blog here lissarankin.com/blog

“Spontaneous” Remission 101:
9 Fundamentals of Whole Health That Conventional Medicine Usually Ignores

Radical cures don’t usually just happen. Most patients and providers who tell awe-inspiring stories of seemingly miraculous cures have been very proactive about confronting illness not with a disease-management approach, but with the intention to restore balance, harmony, and wholeness. Let us come together as a village committed to healing ourselves and transforming how we practice medicine so we can ramp up the rates of “spontaneous” remissions from diseases we once believed were “incurable.” – Dr Lissa Rankin

Another interesting web page to check out if depression is showing up for you in your life- https://chopra.com/articles/healing-from-depression

My belief is that there is always another way and if you have experienced some kind of past trauma and your living with dis-ease in your body then please don’t settle for the diagnosis without at least checking out alternative routes to healing your body and your mind.

I am not suggesting in any way that you should not seek medical advice or stop taking medication at all, so let me make myself clear-ALWAYS SEEK MEDICAL ADVICE WHEN YOU NEED IT; just don’t limit yourself to one school of thought.

Research alternative viewpoints from medical doctors whom specialize in the particular illness or diagnosis that you are living with at present-doctors who are open to thinking differently about illness and the possibility that unprocessed emotional trauma may play a heavy part in preventing a body to heal.

The Heal documentary on You tube which will cost £3.49 to rent or you may even find it’s free, www.youtube.com/watch?v=s5Hpm-6Inxc and it’s also available on Netflix.

The film is fascinating and will expand your mind in so many new and different ways.

What have you got to lose when there is so much more, that you could quite possibly gain.

Over the years I have shared the following statement with my clients and friends;

Take what sits right with you and let go of the rest.


Have a peaceful day.

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The Path of Least Resistance

Day 43 of lock down.

It’s a new month and I wonder what May will bring?

Each day seems to roll into the next, not that I am complaining at all.

It’s kind of nice-learning to let go of self imposed restrictions and walk this road in new and different ways. There are still lots of twists and turns to self navigate which I now welcome, rather than attempt to walk around.

I’ve changed.

You’ve changed.

The world has changed

and its the difference, that makes the difference.

Part of me, wants this new way of living to carry on because going back to the way it was, for me, is not an option.

There were times when I felt suffocated under the weight of the pain that I was carrying and now feel different-like being very little and beginning to crawl, and taking my first steps.

The steps I quite possibly, missed out on taking a very, very long time ago.

Only, which direction shall I go in?

What if I lose my way again?

What if I get lost?

And then I remember.

The Path Made Clear – Oprah Winfrey

So today I will choose the path of least resistance and see where it takes me.

Today I shall remain present and acknowledge my dear old familiar friend called fear, who really, has only ever had my most highest and best interests at heart, which is to keep me safe.

Wootton Creek Isle of Wight – 01.05.20

I hope you will you join me?

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Self care

Walk as if you are kissing the earth with your feet‘ – Thich Nhat Hanh

Such a beautiful quote.

I am so grateful to be able to go out and walk, which we did early this morning and at last it seems that the land has become quieter.

People are finally listening and staying at home.

No buses, cars or bicycles passed by-an eerie silence.

During a 45 minute walk around the block, we saw maybe five people and all but one of them, smiled with a simple recognition of our mutually shared and present reality.

Bless them all.

For the past few days, I have coughed on and off and yesterday my throat was sore and I had a mild headache. I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t a little anxious about the obvious and dealing with a husband that worries as a past time, added a little more unnecessary pressure to manage my feelings.

We must remember that we all do the best we can, with the skills that we have.

I retreated, listened to my body, covered up with a blanket and Netflix won the day.

It’s really okay, to not be okay and there are times when you just need to let go.

If you are trying super hard to be emotionally supportive to everyone in your family then maybe its time to STOP, BREATHE and just be…

You can not give to others what you don’t have yourself.

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